Sunday, February 8, 2009

Reality...


...has knocked me down. The truth of the matter is 1-I am going to college next fall 2-I still don't know where I'm going 3-They don't care about how much passion I have 4-There are so many talented people out there
I realize now that colleges don't care that I love theatre. They don't care that I have a passion to spread the message of what theatre really is. That its about the art. Its about finding yourself. Its about realizing truth. They only care about my talent, my ACT, my gpa. Its all just numbers! That is what everything is based on, some inconsequential number that somehow decides whether or not you will be successful.
Well, I'm through being limited by numbers. I am going to accomplish something. It doesn't matter if they don't want me now. All these colleges will be sorry one day when I have accomplished something great, and they passed up the oppurtunity to have me.
I know that wherever I go there is one thing that will remain constant: me. I will always be Ana. I will always be the me,no matter if I change and grow deep down I will always be that same person. And that person is not willing to sit back and watch other people take the oppurtunities that she could have. I'm not going to stand by and waste my life away.
It starts with the little things. I feel like I have so much on my plate right now, but I know that I can accomplish it all. It will just take time management and determination. I don't want to look back on life and think that I could've committed myself better, that I could have spent more time on important things.
There is no time to waste. We are only allotted a certain amount of time to live this life, and we don't even know how long that is. So, we must use every minute to the fullest, because we never know if it will be our last.
I'm going to start now. Today. To being a better person. To being a more productive person. And therefore, a happier person.

1 comments:

Max George said...

Ana,
I am responding to the note you left me! I totally know how this kind of feeling is like. I think everyone goes through it around graduation. I remeber getting so frustrated at colleges because they only looked at my grades and test scores and not who i really was. When you actually get into school though it becomes different. You just have to keep in mind that you are going to school for yourself! If you keep in mind that you are talented, amazing, sexy, strong, and capable then you will change the world. You are an amazing girl and don't let the world pull you down, pull the world up! Keep strong things do get better ;D I heart your blog!
---Max

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